I am about half way through my LPN schooling. It hate to say this but I feel as though I'm not learning a thing. Although I have good grades in theory and in clinical, I'm petrified that I may not be competent enough to pass the NCLEX. There are reasons behind this, and I am certainly not alone in feeling this way out of those in my class. I'd say 99-100% of us feel this same way. I'll try to make this as short as I can. Basically, the instructors are extremely unorganized, change the schedules or what we're planning to do on a daily basis, they seem next to incompetent (when asked questions, they'll refer us to someone else, tell us to google it, or falt out say they don't know). They are unfair and have "pets" that seem to have perfect grades and can do no wrong but then there are some of us that are told that a correct answer isn't actually correct because they "changed their mind". They call people humiliating names in class but laugh like it's supposed to be a joke. It's like they're children trying to fit in with kids or something. Most of this paragraph, I am refering to one teacher in particular. When we had to do reviews on the instructors at the end of a semester, we were told, in a very vague way, to watch what we say because they read the evals and we should change our hand writing if we don't want them to know it's us. That's just a few things that have happened in class.On to Clinicals. We have spent more than 1/3 of our clinical days in a classroom taking notes because of ridiculous reasons such as "there aren't enough instructors today" or "inspection is today", etc. When we do have clinical days, we spend half of it changing sheets and the other half sitting in a room doing what they like to call "post conference" but it's actually us doing classwork because they just don't feel like doing anymore clinical. At more than half way through our LPN experience, we have never once passed meds, given an injection, seen an actual wound, etc. Ever. I feel so cheated and I'm afraid to call my self a nurse at graduation because I feel i won't be very competent at the end of this. Recently, one of the substitues we sometimes have was in for clinical. It was the best clinical day we've had ever. We were shown how to use systems, how to chart properly, we weren't degraded when we didn't understand something, we were shown how to and allowed to pass meds (supervised of course), we actually got to do nursing actions instead of standing around, unaware of what to do, wondering where the instructors are, trying to figure it out on our own only to be reprimanded for standing around and doing nothing.If someone took you and dropped you in NASA and told you to build a rocket, how would you feel? That's exactly how we feel on a regular basis. We are taken into our location and abandoned with no idea where the instructors are, with fear of asking for help because we know we wil lhear " I already showed you this" or "you're getting on my nerves today" or "you have no self confidence". We're constantly told "you pay xxx amount of money to receive our critisim." It's one thing to be constructive critisim, it's another to be degraded, literally called names that they try to pass off as funny, and then written up for not performing correctly. If no one shows you what to do, you can't possibly know what to do.I'm at a loss. I don't want to but I think regularly about withdrawing from this school. I want to a confident and competent nurse. When my instructor tells us we're not confident, I just want to tell her "well of course we're not, we're learning absolutley nothing and have you harping down our backs." Encouragement and leadership creates confidence, not abandonment and belittling.What do I do about this? What would you do?
