Hi everyone. I decided to join this group because I think i needed some advise from people who are on the same boat as mine and people who have been on my situation.
I graduated 2 yrs ago (2009) in the Philippines. It took me a long time to take my nclex because it there were problems with my credentials.
I got my 1st job as Nurse Tech and I took my 1st nclex exam last yr of June 2010, I took the NCSBN review and didn't pass, I stopped at 75 questions, I knew I didn't make it because I have no idea what the exam was, how it looks like and stuffs like that.
So I took the exam again April 2011, it took a long time for to apply again because I did save for the Kaplan review because they told me Kaplan would help me. As soon as I had the money for the kaplan review, I applied immediately for my boards and scheduled. I studied hard, did all the questions, work-study-work study. I even gave up my social life for quite a while. I finished all the 265 questions and 2 days after, I found out I failed again. My parents were in the Philippines at that time and I didn't tell them I took my boards. My boyfriend was the only person who knew I took the exam. I was crying and got depressed for two weeks. I felt like I don't want to take this exam again. But my boyfriend kept on telling me to try and try until I Pass. He even offered to pay for my fee for my next exam and got me this Lippincot's Q&A's Nclex-RN book.
So I decided to take it again. I studied everyday, do kaplan, answer lippincots Q&A's, when I was at work I did Nclex 4000 when I'm free. I finally told my parents I'm going to take the exam. I just took it two weeks ago. Finished all 265 question and found out I failed again. After 1 week, I told my parents I failed. They told me it was okay and just to take it again. But it wasn't okay for me. I know my parents are frustrated and just didn't show it. I just really don't know how to start again. I don't even know if I'm going to take the exam again. I feel like I'm a Big Failure..