Failed my first comp

Hi All,

It has been a little while since I have posted. I finished my prereqs with flying colors and now I am actually a nursing student. I need some support right now and I know this is where I can get it. I am in nursing 1 right now and I failed my first comp. I feel like a loser. The comp was on hand washing, vital signs, and dry sterile dressing change. I failed when I contaminated my sterile field. I had the drape and 4x4 setup on the table and was getting my gloves ready to put on. I pulled them from their package and then decided to throw away the outer wrapper. I had my trash bag setup on my patients bedside near their hip and I had to turn at the waist to throw away the package....thus the failure! I know that you can't turn your back on the field but I did anyway and to make it worse I didn't even realize. I was stopped by the instructor and she asked what I did wrong...and I had no clue. At first I was mad...and then I was crying...and now I feel like a loser. I have to comp again next Wednesday and I have to pass. I wish I just set the outer package on the table and set the gloves in their wrapper on top of it. That is what I was going to do but I didn't want to risk contaminating my field.

I know it does no good to compare....but other people passed on the first try. On a side note, my average right now is 80 and I did pass my first Med Math test...so I do have some good things going for me. But, at the same time I feel like it is silly to have failed my very first comp.

Thanks for reading my vent....and thanks to all who respond!