I've been putting 200-250 miles a day on my car (but that isn't why I don't want this job anymore) I'm so exhausted by the end of the day I'm nearly in tears. Last night I was sure I'd get a good night's sleep, get to sleep till about 8am, after all, I wanted to get into home health because of the flexibility I heard it offered.
Well, the phone rings at 5:30am and when I answer hello I hear this (almost psycho) sounding voice that was like it had just unraveled some big criminal ring and was ready to begin interrogating the suspects..."You told me you were an RN!"
I was still half asleep. I said "huh? I didn't quite recognize the voice at first.
It repeated, "You told me you were an RN!!!:angryfire (you could feel the heat behind it.) She went on to ad," I've got your file here and it is all FILLED with LPN papers!!!"
I had it figured out by then. It was the DON. So I reminded her that I *was* an LPN and had worked for this company as a private duty LPN before I got my RN license. She is silent a few seconds and then says, "Oh my gosh, I'm soooo sorry! I was over here about to have a stroke! I;m sorry to call you so early but I usually do my paprework early in the mornings! Ha, ha, well good morning!"
So, I figure all is well and good. I go to the office today and she is giving me the evil eye and it is making me feel extremely nervous and paranoid. She makes me nervous anyway because she is (no kidding) in a constant state of panic/mania. Talks a mile-a-minute. Has us running around in circles like chickens with their heads cut off along with her and before we get anything accomplished we have done so much running we don't know which way is up. I was warned by another office person she would have me so confused I wouldn't know which way was up. I should have heeded the warning more closely. I know this woman has good intentions and she is very bright...but I think maybe she is a little too bright. She gets real excited and flies off the handle, puts everyone in a panic. Today she was giving us all a hard time. But this is also the same person I have seen who wants people to be happy (maybe it is her alter ego) and will do what she can to see everyone is satisfied.
But I can't take the craziness anymore. I just don't have the stamina to keep up with someone like that. I like peace and calm. I do hate that I am only three weeks into the job and am already a quitter. I hear rumors she will not be with us long, she was just brought in because she had worked for the state as an inspector at one time and they thought she could help the company get up to par.
I would like some advice on what to do.:trout:
BTW, I'm still traumatized about this morning. It really freaked me out, and I can still hear that voice running through my head in that accusatory tone...it's left me confused and worried about where I stand.
If this is what you really want to do, can you do it somewhere else? Personally, I work a full time job with full time politics. I would tend to quit my part time agency job if it came chuck full of politics too. It really depends what you're looking for and what you're willing to put up with.
Sounds like to me that you're looking to get out of this situation and you're looking for reasons to make it easier to leave. You really sound, by what I've read that you're stressed out and this job really bothers you. It's not worth it. You're not a quitter. Don't look at it like that. Maybe there is something else out there for you...something better...more comfortable. I hope you find it. It's very distressful to be caught up in the politics. My FT job is like that and it's a real pain in the butt.
Hold your chin up. Be proud of who you are and don't regret any decision that you make. Everything happens for a reason. Good luck.
HappyJaxRN
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If this is what you really want to do, can you do it somewhere else? Personally, I work a full time job with full time politics. I would tend to quit my part time agency job if it came chuck full of politics too. It really depends what you're looking for and what you're willing to put up with.
Sounds like to me that you're looking to get out of this situation and you're looking for reasons to make it easier to leave. You really sound, by what I've read that you're stressed out and this job really bothers you. It's not worth it. You're not a quitter. Don't look at it like that. Maybe there is something else out there for you...something better...more comfortable. I hope you find it. It's very distressful to be caught up in the politics. My FT job is like that and it's a real pain in the butt.
Hold your chin up. Be proud of who you are and don't regret any decision that you make. Everything happens for a reason. Good luck.