Don't know what to do

[burntout]

This is a rant. I also need advice. 

 

I genuinely feel so stuck, and worthless. I almost walked out the other day in the middle of my shift. I started at this new facility a month ago. I got hired full-time, and two of the aides I work with have been borderline hazing me since I started. They have this saying "we make you hate it, so you quit it" and let me say I know this firsthand to be true. They have accused me of getting high on the job because I spend 10-15 minutes with each patient GIVING CARE, they have gone out of their way to try and set me up to get fired, and just mentally drained me. The other day I had found out that they attacked my friendships, called me a prostitute, and claimed I stole money. I sell Scentsy as a way to destress and give me something to do on my days off. Caitlyn* didn't feel comfortable placing her order online, so she just gave me cash. I got paid from work and my paycheck was messed up. Instead of paying me the 76 hours I worked, I got paid for 23.22 hours. And I told her that I didn't feel comfortable depositing her money due to the fact I have bills coming out of my account, and I didn't want her money going towards my bills. Caitlyn said that was fine, and to spend the money if I needed to. I told her I wasn't going to spend her money, and I asked her if she wanted her money back to which she said no. I said okay and let her know that if she ever changed her mind the cash would be in my car. The next day I get an angry text from my best friend, to which someone told her that I said "the only reason I dressed slutty on Halloween was so that she didn't feel left out" which wasn't true. I'm freshly 21, so is she. Of course, we're gonna go all out on Halloween. That's when my being called a prostitute began. Then I found out that Caitlyn was also trying to say that I stole the money that she gave me for Scentsy, and spent it on other things rather than her Scentsy order. I then get to work to find myself working alongside a nurse that doesn't help at all, like just us two. She has slept on the job, doesn't help me with call lights or anything. This was all on the same day other than me talking to Caitlyn about her Scentsy order, that was the day before. This nurse tried to take a manual blood pressure without a stethoscope, hopefully, that explains that. 

 

I got in at 10 pm, and it was call light after call light. Like I would sit down, and then instantly another call light would go off right after I sat down. I was doing a complete bed strip on a resident, and the nurse came in to tell me I had other call lights going off. I asked her if she could get the call lights, she said no, then proceeded to say that "she is a nurse, and that is not her job. It is my job to answer the call lights" I asked her to leave the room and told her I would talk to her regarding that when I was done giving resident care. I finished and went up to her and told her that I don't care what her job description is, that I need her help because it is just us two. She began to yell at me saying out I was abusing her, insulting her, and that I am nothing but a jealous wench. I walked away and let it go. I stepped outside to smoke, and clear my head after the call lights were answered. I told her I was taking my lunch and just needed to step outside and clear my head. She acknowledged it. I stepped outside, called my boyfriend to vent which lasted about 15 minutes, and then immediately went back inside. I go answer a call light and this resident instantly started to yell at me, saying that the nurse told her I was MIA for over an hour, that I wasn't doing my job, and how she was going to call state on me. I made sure she was safe, gave her back her blanket and went to tell the nurse what was going on. The nurse started yelling at my in the hallway about abandoning a resident, and how she was going to have to call the administrator. I went to help another resident to the bathroom and got pulled out from helping to go back and get yelled at by the previous resident. Except whenever I tried to leave to let the situation de-escalate, the nurse would close the door. the nurse started to yell at me IN FRONT OF THE RESIDENT and just overall pushed me over the limit. I walked out of the room after the resident threw a disposable chuck at me, and I yelled down the hall "You wanna yell at me in front of a resident?! No. MIA for over an hour?! SERIOUSLY?! Want to see MIA? Fine. *** YOU. I'm going the *** home." I gathered my belongings, went outside, and screamed and cried in my car. I called a coworker and just bawled. After I calmed down a tad, I tried to call the administrator and got sent to voicemail. So I left a voicemail of me crying from being so stressed out. Tried to calm down and go back inside, and the nurse was at the front door. She made eye contact with me and walked away to which I said "are you ***ING KIDDING ME?" She opened the door, and I went to finish my job. The day shift aide came in and now I'm under investigation. 

 

This facility makes me want to leave healthcare all together. The high school type drama, everything. I'm over it. The only issue is that if I leave healthcare I will take a huge paycut, and feel like I failed my residents. I have no experience doing anything else, and haven't heard any sort of communication from my administrator regarding the investigation, and wasn't able to explain what happened to the administrator because she won't even call me. I don't even know what else I COULD do. 

 

 

HELP! 

[amoLucia]

Sounds like you're working in a tough facility. A couple things, MAJOR WRONG all the way around on everyone's part. So I'm not going to make you feel worse.

I would say you need another job - FAST. I do recommend another job. You'll NOT be able to continue working with staff who are targeting you. And you've angered pts - whether right or wrong. Avoid situation discussion with other staff and keep your conversation with the trouble staff at the barest minimum. You have nothing to lose if you call the DON before your next shift to determine IF you're still employed while under investigation.

Healthcare did NOT fail you. You just need a better place. That one facility failed. You'll find your groove.

And welcome to AN even under this tough cloud.

[Grizzy94]

Get you another job. That is no place for your growth as a healthcare worker. Don't give up on your career cause of that environment. Just know there is better you deserve, and remember your "WHY"