Hello! I'm a new grad in a high acuity (level 2)/high volume trauma center in California. I've been part of a "residency" program for the past 4 months with 2 months to go. While I have nothing to compare it to, many of the nurses have told me the residency program and hospital suck, and to get out as soon as I can to a better hospital where my license won't be at stake. We are usually short staffed and have recently had a mass exodus of nurses, doctors, and techs. Still, I'm grateful to have a nursing job straight out of school and the very position I dreamed of.
The problem is that after 4 months I am still having trouble taking on three patients and there's no way I am able to take 4. I have read and been given so much advice and feel like I am following it to the best of my abilities but the bottom line: I'm slow at everything I do! It's killing me!!! I love the ER, I love the people I work with, I even love the dysfunction and chaos of our ER, but I'm starting to ask myself if I'm fooling myself because I can't seem to keep up with the flow no matter how efficient I try to make myself. My question is this: do I stick it out and hope that in two months I will be faster, or do I leave while I'm still seen in a "good light", and try a different floor like telemetry where I have more time to hone my skills and time management? Is there a point when you know you are not cut out for the ER? And if so, how do you know?