Published Oct 12, 2017
AKZLOVE2017
1 Post
So i work on a interventional cardiology unit and been off oriention for about a month and a half...and just feel so overwhelmed and inadequate. And sad even when off work...makes me wonder am I in the right field? Or should I work at a rehab center instead of acute care? And my manager has compared me to others on the floor saying I'm not keeping up with them (they all have more experience than me, even those just off oriention have been nurses elsewhere for years etc). And I've just been having mistakes. I had an elopment...some weeks later someone (very belligerent) left AMA and I forgot an iv in the arm. Some weeks later an almost med error that was caught by a patient's family member (I'm too embarrassed to even describe the details of the error)...and now I might possibly be written up for the near error because the family member told my manager....i just feel so down. And I can never leave work before 8pm due to charting. Its hard to find people that can relate.
Davey Do
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So i work on a interventional cardiology unit and been off oriention for about a month and a half...and just feel so overwhelmed and inadequate. And sad even when off work...makes me wonder am I in the right field? Or should I work at a rehab center instead of acute care?
Hi AKZLOVE2017! Welcome to AN.com!
My heart goes out to you and I can appreciate you seeking comradeship from non-involved virtual professionals. We can, at least, offer support and empathy, and maybe some concepts to consider.
It's difficult enough dealing with the stress of a new position. Add the feelings of not being up to snuff and you've got quite an emotional situation on your hands.
In an attempt to identify with with your situation, I remember when I broke into OR after being a psych LPN for 2 1/2 years. In the beginning, I felt like I was all thumbs and would never learn the job. Surgeons yelled at me and the Assistant Manager suggested that maybe I didn't belong.
Then, after 3 months, it all came together to the point that I was first scrubbing on involved cases and some Surgeons even requested me!
However, the Fates said OR was not where I was to be. After 9 months, I was laid off in the Hospital's second big lay off episode, being the only LPN in the OR.
Alas and forlorn. But all's well that ends well. I was called back to the Hospital 2 weeks later to work in what became one of the best experiences of my life and career: Chemical Dependency treatment!
I went on to get my RN and the rest is history!
The Fates guide those who will. Those who won't, they drag. Here's hoping that your Fates guide you, as they did me, to a worthy position!
The very best to you, AKZLOVE2012!