Disclosing depression diagnosis to state board.

Has anyone ever disclosed to their state board about being hospitalized for depression? I was asked to do so by my nurse manager after having a recurrent depressive episode triggered by major family issues. She said that while my patient care had not suffered, was in fact, "excellent," the staff was "worried about me" due to some statements I said in the depths of this episode, (ie. "just trying to stay on this side of the locked doors" (psych unit), expressing wishes not of death but of nonexistence, etc).

Well, I disclosed my condition in June, I have NOT been able to return to work as of yet. I am not being paid, I have used up all of my sick leave/vacation and short term disability does not cover mental health hospitalization. Also, when I first disclosed, I was told that I would need to go to an inpatient center on "their list" for a neuropsychological evaluation for 3-5 days. The closest center was over 100 miles away from my home. Also I would have to pay for it $3,000-5,000 out of pocket (insurance won't cover it). I did contest this with the state board medical director who agreed that I did not need inpatient evaluation (I had just finished 5 days inpatient and 3 weeks intensive outpatient treatment). Oh, by the way, all the centers were for substance abusers, which I don't have a history of! Finally, they decided that I could have a neuropsychological evaluation by one of "their listed neuropsychologists" (only 3 in the state) again at my own cost of $1,000-3,000. Scheduled and completed this the first part of August. After a week and a half playing phone tag, calling them to see if anything had been resolved, the board stated they needed my hospitalization discharge summary. It took 2 weeks to get the ok to release the information from my psychiatrist. Yesterday, I hand delivered the summary (the hospital refused to fax it) and was told, NOW they wanted my outpatient therapy treatment and discharge summary. I was told IF i can get this in by Friday of this week, the medical director will look at it Monday and maybe schedule an appointment to review THEIR recommendations with me THE FOLLOWING WEEK!

HAS ANYONE GONE THROUGH THIS? I was told I "did the right thing" by disclosing my diagnosis and nothing punitive would happen, but does anyone here feel like 5 months of no pay and over $1,000 out of pocket IS in fact punitive. One more thing, I have to be available for random drug testing at their whim (again, I HAVE NO HISTORY OF SUBSTANCE ABUSE, my med error rate at work is one of the lowest, I don't even drink alcohol).

Sorry this rant is so long, but I would appreciate any advice on how anyone else has handled this type of situation.:flmngmd::flmngmd::flmngmd: