I recently graduated from an LPN program in Feb. '11, and was lucky enough to find a full time job last month in a LTC facility. The problem is I'm having a hard time adjusting to the job. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed and anxious. Time management is an issue(told I'm too slow), my med passes take too long, and I have a hard time remembering everything I need to do. Yes I have a cheat sheet, but it seems to be a pita pulling it out. I've been in the DON's office for a stern lecture once already. (I even forgot to lax a couple residents before I left my shift one night recently.) This has me so upset. I feel that I made a wrong decision in choosing nursing as a career. I feel like an utter and complete failure. Do I stick it out and go with the flow with hopes of becoming more proficient in my time (and be consistently worried I won't be hired when my probationary period is up or fired sooner)? Or do I make an attempt to find another job, which is so hard to find in my area? Some of the staff is helpful, but I feel like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole there. I don't want to give up so easily, but I am becoming a person who I never thought I'd be. Always anxious, no life, never see my kids due to my fluctuating schedule, and getting more & more unhappy each day. The thought of being unemployed with no income (I am a single mom) scares me terribly. Any advice or comments are welcomed. Thank you.
You'll soon find a suitable place for you. But you should know, that "bullying thing" is an old drama within any institution. Heard a lot of stories here and there. So we might as well prepare for it this time. You've seen some of it on that hospital, do something about it now for you to be able to shield yourself if ever you'd have to deal with such, again. It's something that is unavoidable, "politics" I'd say is everywhere, so we might as well prepare for it so we could endure it the next time. Pray a lot now for your next moves. Ask for strength . And always remember, God is bigger and much much greater than all of our problems combined. Trust in Him and ask for guidance as well. And I'd say, let's try to open up the book again and review a little then & now,that might ease your worries a bit hehe, I would definitely do that since I'd have an upcoming exam at QCGH & V.Luna.. wish me luck! hehe God bless you Miss.. :)
wish me luck! hehe God bless you Miss.. :)
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Thank you for your positive words. Being my first nursing experience, it has left a terrible "taste in my mouth". Hopefully it gets better from here.