I have been in the ER now 14 months. NOT long at all. I'm the type of person who really doesn't care nor want to know gossip. If I hear about it, and I question it, I go to the source... unless it's negative information, then admittedly, I avoid it. If I know about it then EVERYONE knows about it. Well the past two weeks, I have heard more information about me. I have found out, one charge thinks I can't be trusted, the same charge believes that I do not belong in the ED. I am mostly honestly a positive person. I smile at everybody, I'm polite, listen, I'm the "nice nurse." My clinical judgment has been questioned as if I should have a lot more knowledge then I do; I feel any way. When everyday, I go home if I missed something, I beat myself up. This something I've missed or done improperly gets called out, sometimes in front of people aka co-workers, sometimes not. I have taken the advice and direction from more senior nurses, who have then "thrown me under the bus" so to speak. I have performed some actions under their advisement, and when it was a judgement in error, no one has stood up for me. This is my dream job, always has been. However, lately I feel when I go into work, I'm going to disappoint someone or screw something up. I don't feel as if I can trust or speak to anyone without it coming to bite me in the butt. Any advice on how to go into work a little more confident without so much trepidation?
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I have been in the ER now 14 months. NOT long at all. I'm the type of person who really doesn't care nor want to know gossip. If I hear about it, and I question it, I go to the source... unless it's negative information, then admittedly, I avoid it. If I know about it then EVERYONE knows about it. Well the past two weeks, I have heard more information about me. I have found out, one charge thinks I can't be trusted, the same charge believes that I do not belong in the ED. I am mostly honestly a positive person. I smile at everybody, I'm polite, listen, I'm the "nice nurse." My clinical judgment has been questioned as if I should have a lot more knowledge then I do; I feel any way. When everyday, I go home if I missed something, I beat myself up. This something I've missed or done improperly gets called out, sometimes in front of people aka co-workers, sometimes not. I have taken the advice and direction from more senior nurses, who have then "thrown me under the bus" so to speak. I have performed some actions under their advisement, and when it was a judgement in error, no one has stood up for me. This is my dream job, always has been. However, lately I feel when I go into work, I'm going to disappoint someone or screw something up. I don't feel as if I can trust or speak to anyone without it coming to bite me in the butt. Any advice on how to go into work a little more confident without so much trepidation?