I have been reading/posting here for several months primarily to get a feel for the nursing field and to commiserate with those in similar situations. These forums have been invaluable. I have spent about a year preparing to go back to school to pursue a nursing degree (ADN). I currently have a B.A. and M.Ed. and am staying home with my 2 children (ages 2 and 4). I struggled with returning to school full time while still having very young children--so I worked diligently over the last year to make sure that all I had to do would be to complete the nursing courses, hoping to limit time they spent in a daycare program (we have no family here). I was accepted into a program, did all the post application work and now I am making the difficult decision to NOT go to nursing school this fall. I thought my decision would be a lot easier, but it wasn't. And I'm not so sure why. I was given the opportunity to pursue my Ph.D. in Education (such a lucrative venture--note sarcasm). I love teaching and the thought of teaching future teachers is exciting (I had hoped that one day I might teach future nurses). It all happened very fast. I am now preparing to take the GRE, I'm adjuncting at the university this fall and completing the application to begin officially in winter. While weighing this opportunity I came on these boards and asked for advice in regards to my situation and if nurses/students would do it all again. I was grateful for the honest replies--some people said NO WAY, others said, WITHOUT A DOUBT that they would do it all again. I guess I was looking for something to hit me and tell me what to do. Even with the "no jobs" "nursing school is demanding" "work is tough" --I still found making the decision tough. In the end, I looked at my children. They are 2 and 4 . . . I went to school and worked and had them later in life so I could be home with them. On top of that, my son is receiving therapies (OT, speech, ABA)--something we hope he'll transition out of in the next year. I feel I need a little more time and the Ph.D. is more flexible (I can go part-time or even just one class at a time). Plus, this route seems to justify my former degrees. HOWEVER, I can't shake the nagging feeling that I don't want to completely let go of the possibility of nursing. Would it be out of the realm of possibility to ask the director of the nursing program to hold my application until next year (not asking for a guarantee, just a chance to not go through gathering all 10 of my transcripts again)? I figure that gives me a whole year to figure things out--my children will be a little older and both in preschool (and hopefully therapy-free) and I can determine if the Ph.D. is the best option or if nursing is still calling. Advice, thoughts, comments, criticisms?