Anxiety Issues (kinda Long)

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Hi all,

I started a job at the beginning of the year as a unit secretary on mother-baby at a major hospital in my city. I plan to start the LPN program in January also. I was very happy that I got this job because I had never had in prior experience. Right before my job one of my good friends seven year old daughter passed away in an automobile accident. This hospital is right next to the childrens hospital that she was at. I started working at this hospital and everything was ok then some months into it there was a notice at the nurses station that one of the residents fiance was killed in an automobile accident. I was like ok...wow. Then just recently one of the night nurses that that work on the floor was killed in a accident on vacation. It was on the news and everything. It was very crazy. Anyway here is my problem. I'm there working and I'm looking out the window directly at the hospital my friends daughter was at and start thinking about what she is going through, etc. and my own. And I'm thinking every since I started this job and going to this job it reminds of people dying. I think I had an axiety attack. Everything was find throughout the day I was going on normal. There was an issue with an order that I entered in incorrectly we fixed it and it was fine. Then all of a sudden I was sitting there and I could barely breath. I had to control my breathing, my face started to get really hot, and my hands started to shake. It was bad, I think everything hit me at once. I got up and told the nurse (a good friend of mine) I was going to the back to sit down but when I did I broke down crying. She was very comforting but I just told her I felt overwhelmed not really what was behind the anxiety. My job as a secretary can be kind of stressful sometimes because you need to handle the desk and deal with nurses and , etc. Sometimes when I'm there lately I sitting there and I feel my face start to get hot, my breathing gets crazy, and starts to come from my eyes like I can't take this anymore. My husband knows about the first attack but he doesn't know the root of where it is coming from. This past week was really bad I left there with my head pounding and I broke down in tears when I got to my car. Everytime I'm getting ready to go this job I start feeling very anxious. I'm considering leaving this job if it doesn't get better. I am perfectly fine when I leave and I go home to my family. It's only when I go there where I start freaking out. I am also starting the lpn program in January and just wondering if nursing is for me. I have never experience anxiety or anxiety attacks before I started working at this job. But it's really getting bad I don't want to be there anymore. They have an employee service where you can go talk to someone about anything that is bothering you. I might do that. But other than that I don't know what else do to. Please if you guys have any suggestions I would love it. :cry: