Am I cut out for this?

Hello!

I am currently a pre-nursing student, about to apply to the program and desperately hoping I get in. As of now, I am hoping to become a psychiatric nurse.

Yet, I still feel unsure and stress constantly that I am making a mistake.

I chose nursing for a variety of reasons. I know I will be able to find a job and make money as an RN. A lot of people in my family are nurses and they all seem to love it. I know I need a job where I feel I am making a difference. I know I could not handle sitting at a desk all day; I like that nurses do a lot of running around, hands-on stuff. I like that it will be possible for me to work only two or three long shifts a week. Most of all, the idea of helping others appeals to me immensely. As I mentioned, I am hoping to go into psych nursing because I have always been told by others (including my mom, who is a mental health counselor) that I am very well with giving advice/making people feel better/staying cool in hectic situations. I am also a relatively happy and cheerful person almost all the time, and do not hold grudges (I'm guessing these would be good traits for a psych nurse to have also?). I have struggled with mental illness myself in the past and being able to help others dealing with mental illness, even if only a little, would make me incredibly happy and satisfied (or so i believe).

I am worried, however, because I don't know if I have what it takes to handle the stress that I know comes along with this profession. I suffer from social and generalized anxiety as well as fairly severe ADHD. I cannot take the meds they have prescribed me for ADHD because they make me either horribly depressed of just feel off in general. Also, I do not seem to fit in with my nursing peers. I am a more artsy, free-spirited hippie type of person, and I simply do not see any others like me in my class. I am worried that I would feel isolated from friends/family because of the hours I have to work. I want to make sure I am making the right decision. I don't want to be a nurse unless I can be a good nurse and feel happy while being a nurse.

Any advice or words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated! Also if you have any advice regarding what nursing specialty may be a good fit for me, that would be great also.