Advice/suggestions for new hospice nurse

[NguyenRN]

It's really hard out there to get a job right now as a new grad unless you have connections. I was so happy to have found a job and i am grateful that this company has taken a chance on new grads. As i was told being in hospice is alot about the image and how you project your compassion for the pt to their families. I was hired for Rn visiting then i was trained for case manager. I didn't see that happening right away so i was shocked but i stuck with it and i did my best to learn fast while still learning the right way. But after training it seems that i am "too young and immature" for the position. I did my best and my best wasn't worth anything. Not to mention 1st day out in the field my nurse bit my head off for not having experience! Well i just got a review yesterday, I was told that i am doing and saying the right thing but i can not compensate for how at times my facial expression makes me look like a child and how i can't connect to pts families that i really know what i am doing and that i care. I know enough about hospice and i have had 1st hand experience as a family member to a hospice pt. I really do care about the pts and their comfort and i really do feel for the families. So now i am given the title as RN RUNNER instead. Where i will not get my own load of pts but i will be visiting for COC and pts that nurses don't have time to go see. I already live far from the office and now i may even drive out further to see pts. At 1st i was told i'd get one area now i'm just told that i may drive an hr or two away from the office. and that i need to compensate for how young i look by dressing up in business attire to visit my pts. It just sucks that i can't wear scrubs while doing pt care. I am 23 and i feel like i'm being punished for being a young nurse.

What do you guys suggest i do? Right now i am looking for a new job. What should i say when i find another job and quit?