Advice, please.

This is probably gonna turn out very long, so I apologize in advance.

I've been a nurse for 3 years, but in the medical field for a total of 8 years. I'm 25 years old. My first nursing job allowed my to gain a little experience in a little bit of everything and I must say, I was really good at it. But the stress from that place had me mentally and physically exhausted constantly, I lost weight due to stress and anxiety, and it really was just toxic for me - it all but disintegrated my home life because all I could think about was how bad my day always was and how I dreaded going back. So I looked for a new job.

I've been with my new place for about a year now and overall, it really is a nice place to work. But there's just this one thing that nags me. I feel like everyone I work with thinks that I'm an idiot.

Now...I chose to work 11-7. I've worked days and 3-11 and I was hoping to take the pace down a notch and go to nights, just to try to get myself straight again. I was planning on probably switching shifts again eventually but wasn't sure when. Well it turns out that I love working nights, I sleep better, I get more time with my residents and nothing feels super rushed. The downside....that "night shift nurses are lazy" stigma.

On top of that, I'm half the age of most of the people I work with, and I feel like I'm looked down upon for that fact. I feel like it perpetuates the stereotype that I'm lazy because I work nights.

I often get talked to like a child. And the other thing that really bothers me is that anything and everything I do is always wrong. Like, if I do it one way, it's wrong....then I do the same thing the way I was told and it's wrong for another reason now. When I was first hired, my manager seemed really impressed with the experience I had and she had said if there was anything that I thought would maybe work better a different way to offer input....I quickly learned that was a no-no. My ideas were instantly torn apart. And now I'll notice things with residents and make suggestions and when I make them it's no....that won't work we can't do that....but then more often than not those ideas are implemented within the week.

Im big on doing well and excelling at things. I like to master my craft. I don't feel like I'm doing that here and I don't feel like it's anything I can control. I feel like no matter how hard I try or even if I don't try, the outcome will always be the same.

So, my question is....how can I deal with this? I don't want to express these things because I don't want to make waves. But at the same time, I hate feeling like everyone I work with looks at me like some young twit who doesn't really know what she's talking about. Do I just keep doing my job the best that I can and say I tried? Or just kind of brush it off and say oh well? Any advice is greatly appreciated.