Published Aug 31, 2009
HannahLeah
39 Posts
Ive been a HH nurse for 5 years now and today I lost a long timer. he became my patient because he was too crabby for the others, he was a "hard stick" for all the blood draws, he was in chronic pain and was non-compliant. I took him on because I told him he didnt scare me and he could go ahead and cuss me out, I was a big girl and could take it, and he finally smiled and said I know, thats why I like you. Under the crusty exterior was a smart, interesting man. Over the years we became friends and as I helped this once dignified man and his devoted wife battle all the indignities of old age, pain and illness, my admiration for his strength and character grew. A week ago he came home after yet another GI bleed and decided no more dialysis, no more transfusions. It was time to go. I helped get him admitted to hospice and posted all my personal #'s on the fridge and told the family to call me anytime. My last call came this morning and I went and helped him for the last time. I will never forget him and I will miss George.
momsnurse
10 Posts
It is so hard to lose a patient that you feel like you have really connected with and that you know their life was better because of the time/effort you gave to them. Sorry for your loss, but remember YOU made a difference in his life and he was and always will be grateful to you for that. Keep on giving the best care you can, the world is a better place when we care for others in need.
nurseby07
338 Posts
Thank you for being such a great nurse.
jnette, ASN, EMT-I
4,388 Posts
We do get attached, don't we?
Been there, done that, as I'm sure most of us have. Never easy, always sad.. even when we know their suffering is over.
Having worked both dialysis and HH, I do know what you're feeling, and I empathize.
(((gentle hugs)))