Quote from dankat
I have been working in a pediatric Cardiac ICU for the past 8 weeks as a new grad. I love my job and the fact that I am learning new things everyday! I just had my first evaluation today and it was not the best. They are extending my orientation by 2 weeks so I am on orientation for 8 more weeks. While I do understand why they did it (I need to read more and get better with handling 2 patients AND just to be extra safe), at the same time I can't help but feel defeated and not smart enough to work there. I was never the straight A student so I am not very smart and having this makes me feel like I don't deserve to work in such a great unit. Any pick me ups/advice?
How bad is "not the best"?
Did they give you specific things to work on? Are you getting enough rest & refreshment in your private life?
You are smart enough to know that you need more study and learning. That's the beginning of "smart". Getting A's in school doesn't really translate to A's at work, so quit telling yourself you're dumb. Soon enough, someone will be seeing you as the expert, not the novice or even the beginner or semi-expert.
Don't get into thinking you don't deserve to work where you are. Just start counting your blessings and do that several times each day.
Make a study plan. What topics do you need to study? I know you probably think you need to study everything. Well, just make a list. And when will you do this? Each evening after work? And several hours on your days off?
Do you need more hands-on with various equipment? More practice charting? Assessing? Other areas?
Make a specific plan of attack. Ask for feedback each week, at least.
Start imagining yourself orienting another new grad and make a curriculum that you would want her to master. When we teach a topic, we really learn it.
Best wishes. Oh, BTW, it takes a solid year to feel good on a job.