Just wondered how other UK nurses out there are finding their preceptorship? Have you even got one? Or, like me, do you have a little preceptorship booklet but several months into your first job, haven't been told who your preceptor is?
I am so ALONE on my ward it is scary. No feedback - at least not of the balanced variety - just getting pulled up when I do something wrong...which is often by the way and I need to get pulled up :-) but my confidence is totally non-existent, I'm scared of being fired after my 6-monthly probation period. I get told by my charge nurse that 'people' are not happy with the way I work but every time I ask for a little feedback from my colleagues all I get is 'Yeah, that was fine, that was fine, that was fine, don't fret'. So WHO IS IT that is feeding back to him (the charge nurse) that I'm not paying attention? He then calls me into the staff office down the corridor and tells me off. But no-one EVER seems to recognise when I'm doing stuff right.
So now I'm really scared. We have another meeting on Friday...I'm off till then and am spending the whole time shaking. When I started, I had little visions of my preceptor and me meeting every 7-10 days for a cosy little chat and a debrief. But no. Now I DID do something silly last week - no-one got hurt - and I'm absolutely crapping myself.
Tell me then, how are other newly-qualified nurses finding it?