Well....I may not provide the enlightening words you're looking for, but anyhow, why are you being so hard on yourself for not being happy? You got that "guilty for trying something different" and there's nothing wrong with honing your profession to how you want and expect it to be. Should it be nothing less? In one year's time, I began at a health dept, felt I was losing valuable nursing skills, then went on to a Med/Surg floor (loathed it, not the pts, but rather the politics of how to do nursing), spent one day at a pain clinic only to find that I couldn't even drink water for 5 hours it was so hectic (said, sorry, not for me), and then started teaching. I figured, I better do something more hospital-like and also started at an ER. The difference is night and day between them all, but I know for sure what I won't do! Now I will say that all the orientations are very daunting for the job hopping I did, and it wasn't because I can't stay put, but I refuse to be miserable at the same time. The ER is so amazingly different from floor nursing and teaching has been so much fun, iut's not even like work so I start grad school this fall. The point is that, it's ok to change specialties so long as you understand you'll be learning the ways of the "other" dark side of nursing until it just becomes routine for you. Explore your profession because when you leave one facility or even stay at your facility, but change depts. sometimes the money increases with that change too! Now myr esume this year looks confusing, but at least I can say with certainty that this is where I want to be....and stay!