newly licensed RN

[AngelofSeduction]

so i passed my nclex. license came in. i'm happy of whta i accomplished but now i'm scared to start into the real world.i never thought about what i wanted to be at least i dont remember from when i was younger. i came to the U.S when i was 10 with no english. mom worked hard put me through public school to learn English then i went on to catholic school for the remainder of my time.i've always excelled in school because i made school my priority. coming from a haitian background education is very important..it is before anything so i was always consumed into my school. no socializing friends or anything. went on to highschool and still didnt know what i wanted to be but once again i worked hard and was bringing home the good grades. when it came time to applying to college i was new to the whole process and didnt know much about colleges so i was relying on what the guidance counselors said. but for some reason i always said i wanted to be a psychologist because of i liked to talk to people and give advice i guess. i told my mom this and she said she wasnt going to pay for my school and told me to go to nursing. i never thought about nursing or even thought about the school i went to which was molloy college. one of the best for nursing. i got accepted after my first semester in 2008 and the rest is history. went through A7P so many classes i thought i would failed but God guided me through the whole program and excelled with a 3.5 for 5 years. didnt even graduate with the people i started nursing with..eitherr they failed out, got left back or left school for another major. sometimes i ask myself am i really smart ( people tell me i am) or do i just have a good memory. i know nursing is not easy and i worked hard.i eat and breathe nursing monday - sunday no social life just school. now that i graduated and passed i am nervous to start the real world. i feel like i dont know enough or what if i what i learn in school i cant apply. what if im too slow with the skills, i dont pick up on things, not observant, dont know how to give report.all these things going through my head. like i said i never though about nursing but from doing intern i have worked with med/surg and met a lot of geriatric and i feel comfortable with them and a lot of nurses and patients have told me im gonna be great but i worry because i never dreamnt of being a nurse or whatever. im like how am i going to advocate, form relationship with patients. i really dont want to be those people who's in it for the benefit. i really want to be true and really care about my patients and so on...i know i ramble alot but any tips would be helpful. thank you

[AngelofSeduction]

any tips you have. i got a call for an interview and they offer me postion but dont know when orientation starts. it's going to be a med surg floor so now im just waiting and nervous at the same time worrying if i know enough or will i remember things. i don't even think i remember how to make a bed or tie restraint lol. it's been so long since i done that in clinicals. just nervous but i want to do my best. and i'm also not a in your face type personality kind of to myself unless im comfortable with you so i know i need to get out of my comfort zone i dont want people thinking im mean or whatever