I don't know if this fits in here but I am a new nurse. My anxiety has always been heightend in me for some reason and it will sneak up on me without a warning. I also have control issues and when things dont' go in the order i expect them to it freaks me out and creates more anxiety. I was recently suspened without pay b/c my supervisor thought I was not taking care of my patients safely. i had to go get a blood and urine test for drugs. i tried to explain to them that it was just my anxiety. I guess I could use the old excuse I was overworked, switching from nights to days is hard, but it is hard for me sometimes. I guess what triggered my anxiety to increase more was having a pt who was dying from liver cancer and it brought back memories of my mom. i knew i would have to deal with this one day, but i guess it hit me harder than i thought it would. Ever since then i guess i have been just going down hill so to speak. So when i got the news about the suspension it was hard to hear but after sulking for a day, i realized that my anxiety had taken over my life. i know i can be a better nurse and hopefully i can learn from this lesson that i need to ask for help . can i recover from this? i am afraid all of the hard work i put into being a nurse will go away.