Wait and see.. (TPAPN)

[Sj81]

I just submitted my notice of revocation of participation from the TPAPN program. I've only been in it for 4 months, but I don't see how it would be possible to do it for 3 years with the lack of support and help from my case manager that she was supposed to provide. I don't feel like my case manager new much about the program itself and on numerous occasions she would tell me I wasn't allowed to do something or I was required to something that ended up not being the case. I was apprehensive from the beginning when my CM told me that if I wanted an evaluation for mental illness (I've been diagnosed and treated for anxiety disorder, ADHD as well as have severe insomnia) I had to see one who also specialized in substance abuse (I tested positive for marijuana on a random UA) because that's what I was referred to TPAPN for. So I did some research, gave her names of providers that I found in the Austin area but was told that they had to be TPAPN approved. The only one she said she had was a Dr. in Dallas, which is about 4 hrs from here. I won't bore you with too many details about the experience, but it turns out that I drove to Dallas twice for nothing because I found out that the "psychiatrist" she said was TPAPN approved was actually a psychologist, which is not what I needed for my evaluation. I called my CM and informed her of this, and she didn't believe me. I had to dig up his credentials online and forward them to her before she believed me, and all she said was "huh, I'll have to look into that." No apologies for sending me there twice and wasting my gas, time, or for causing delays in getting my evaluation done, which had to be done before you can get authorization to return to work as a nurse. That was just the beginning of the many bad experiences in such a short period of time. I absolutely love being a nurse, and I'd love to continue being one, but being in TPAPN was such an awful experience that I've been considering just surrendering my license and going back to business administration. Now... I sit and wait for the letter from the BON letting me know that my license is under investigation and start working on Plan B.