To make a long story short, my nursing license went on "probation" in March re: psychiatric problems (I was going through anxiety and depression and ended up staying 2 days on a psychiatric unit) my job at the time found out about this and then said I had been acting strange at work and one nurse reported that I smacked a "patients bottom open handed while putting on Aloe Vesta" (which I didn't). Anyways I was fired from that job (resigned or be fired) Mind you, no patient complaints, this was a report from a fellow nurse who remains anonymous. I moved on and worked at a job I loved for almost a year when I was contacted by the board of nursing and went through all the "Consent Agreement" procedure (yes I had an attorney) and now I am on probation. I do not really have any restrictions (no med restrictions, I just can't be a Nursing Supervisor). My monitoring agent is very cooperative about approving me to work any job. I was fired from my current job back in April after my consent agreement went into affect, although I was 100% approved by the BON to work there, I was still fired. I am now on my 3rd appeal for unemployment (there saying my nursing license isn't valid so they had a right to fire me). Well I finally got the nerve to apply to other jobs, I have got calls for a few interviews, problem is, I am soooo embarassed and ashamed and do not know how to bring this up when I go on interviews. This has affected my life so greatly. I am on the verge of bankruptcy, My husband has MS and recently had a relapse and so I feel like I cannot talk to him about this for fear I will stress him out and cause another relapse. I actually rescheduled an interview I had because I become physically ill thinking about how I would explain this to the person interviewing me (my license being on probabtion). Basically, how did you get the nerve to go on interviews, I know I need to "man up" or (woman up) and do it, but I am scared I will start crying and don't know how to get my nerve up to go on interviews, I am so scared of rejection and embarassment this is really paralyzing me. I thought about getting a job in another field, I feel so scared to try and get a nursing job. ANy advice is appreciated! Thanks.