NCLEX STUDYING

This is my last resort as an outlet to the frustration that I am having. I wish someone would have stressed how important it was while I was in nursing to school to study for the NCLEX and to take it before school was over.

So now almost a year out of school and I am still just a graduate nurse. Like many people, I needed a nursing JOB asap.

So as soon as I finished school I studied for a while, thinking I was prepared for the test and didn't pass. But let me say I was stressed beyond belief. I think all odds were against me at the moment when I took my test.

First, I couldn't see well due to me losing my contacts and I didn't have any glasses at the time. Second, the weeks prior there was constant fighting between my mother and I as well as my brother and I. Thirdly, I had just started a new relationship and included the person into my life and goals, not really subsiding any of the pressure that I already had on my back due to the fact that all my family knew when I was going to take the test.

Once I got to the testing center, I stopped at 165 questions in less than 2 hours. Talk about rushing. I swear I must have dozed off so many times while taking the test, could barely see, was so anxious, and cold that no wonder I failed.

I left the center just knowing my faith went home and did the trick and of course, I was able to register again. I just broke down in tears, but I'm not the type of person to just wallow in my sorrows. But now almost eight months after that I still haven't sat for my exam as yet. Every time I'm in the groove of studying something in my LIFE comes up where I have to devote my attention to that! I hate it!

I just finished a job as a HEALTH COACH and was going to use the money to register for a review course and of course I had to use all the money for something that just came up out of nowhere!! Talk about perfect timing!

The pressure is really on my back, not only because I have a son but it's like my whole family is crumbling and I have to be the one to help out because I have a degree that is promising! Although I have such weight on my shoulders I feel I get no help anywhere!!

I don't know how people with kids were able to study. By the time I'm finished dealing with my son and his homework, I am so drained that I just want to go to bed! I got offered another job this week, which is only 4 weeks long (what's up with that) but I know the hours will be ridiculous, but I said once I get paid I will sign up for a review course and burst my brains and take my exam! I so want to be a nurse!

This is my passion and it pains me to not be able to get over this hurdle! I'm disappointed in myself for not focusing more while in school, sometimes when I'm doing the questions and I get so many wrong, I'm like *** and I dumb (which I know I'm not) but this test can really shatter someone's spirits.

I just would like to hear from anyone who has had a similar experience to me and see how you dealt with it. I just really decided to come on here to release my frustrations because I really have no one else to talk to and I am not going to have a nervous breakdown with all the craziness going on in my life, I'm too strong for that. ANYONE HELP!!