Is this how work really feels like? Have you felt like this before?

[sydneyxmoon]

So I'm new at this nursing thing and I got a job at a skilled nursing facility. Ive been working there for three months and the last two months I feel like vomiting every time I know I have to go in. I get panic attacks where I start hyperventilating and bust out crying because I don't want to do it. I'm on call and haven't been picking up because I don't want to go in. Once I'm there, I'm there I have to do it. But sometimes in the middle of passing medication I wanna quit, go home or start crying. Although I don't, its really hitting me emotionally, making problems between me and my spouse and my parents are worried about me because i threatened to kill myself because I hate what I do. Is it the fact that maybe my area in nursing is too stressful for me and maybe I should move into home care? I don't know has anyone felt like this before? I'm 22 and this is actually my first real job so...I don't know it really sucks to feel this way. Its like a big nasty hole in my stomach and it messes me up big time!

[JN12]

OMG you crack me up!

But I feel with you and understand what your going through. Hang in there and do the best you can or start looking for another job that is more suited for you and what you can deal with. Find a support system to help you get through this and do not try to get through this alone. Seek professional advice and talk to family and freinds. I am sure many people have stress and fears when starting off in a new job. Goodluck and wish you the best!