Hello. I am a new LPN in LTC. I am SO discouraged. I recieved 4 days of training. There were no hours open, so I actually didn't get to work on my own until several weeks after training. My night was AWFUL. My shift is 4hrs on a hall of about 20, including a tube feed, 4 diabetics and 4 skilled rsdts. I didn't finish my 4p med pass until after 5p. I didn't finish my 8p med pass until about 1030p. I wanted to cry right there at the med cart, and leave! But, I knew that I could not, so somehow, I pulled it together. A supervisor came in to do an IV, and asked how it was going. I told her..well, I am SO late. She said "oh, honey I could not do all that in 4 hours either. Its ok." This made me feel somewhat better. I left SO paranoid that I forgot someone, or something. I asked the nurse following me, "did you notice anything stupid I did? Or didnt do?" She said.no, that I did great.
I understand that this is the norm for LTC, and that it takes time to get your routine, etc. But, this has gotten me downright depressed
I am SO scares if I go back that I will end up losing my nursing liscense. It's too rushed! I asked how I was suppose to do my 3checks of the 5 rights and was told that I would not have time. What?! What about treatments? If I want to do everything correctly and CAREFULLY then I feel I need 8 hrs..not 4!! I am on call, so not scheduled. I had signed up to work a few days, but got someone to cover it because the thought of doing that again just gives me SUCH anxiety.
I can't eat, sleep, or relax. I NEED to work. And I WANT to be a nurse. I hate to think I wasted all that time and money. I am scheduled a few more data this month, I KNOW I just need to grow up and go do my job. But, that thought makes me want to cry!!! Can anyone else relate? Or am I being overly anxious? Thanks!