Third strike....

[grapescrubs]

I am really low right now which is probably clouding my judgement but I don't think I could bear to attempt another nursing class again. I got a 79.3% in overall score, which isn't enough to pass on in my program, I would need an 80%. I've struck out two different classes before and this would my third time then. I feel like a failure, considering this is another class I didn't pass it certainly rings true. I technically can go back to attempt this class again but I don't think I could face the professors and go through the process of appeals.

Contributing to this is the fact that my financial aide runs out in 8 credits, just enough for one more semester, so I wouldn't have been able to do much about it anyways it seem like. I have 3 years in a bachelors of science for a different degree and the loans to prove it. I could not finish that degree because of life events involving my then new born - now eleven year old. Single parent taking care of aging parents and my son. I feel utterly overwhelmed, alone and completely and utterly embarrassed.

Does anyone have any advice?

[midnightlpn]

Never give up on your passion or let the journey defeat you. I've had to fail over and over again before I could get anywhere. But each time is an experience and something to learn from truly examine if nursing is your passion. If so, keep banging the door until it opens. Give yourself a chance to start anew each day. If it doesn't end up being your choice the experiences will lead you to exactly where you SHOULD be!

[grapescrubs]

Never give up on your passion or let the journey defeat you. I've had to fail over and over again before I could get anywhere. But each time is an experience and something to learn from truly examine if nursing is your passion. If so, keep banging the door until it opens. Give yourself a chance to start anew each day. If it doesn't end up being your choice the experiences will lead you to exactly where you SHOULD be!

Thank you.

I did joke with my ex-clinicalmates that I would have a whole lot of clinical experience by the time I finished! Clinical- always have done well.... testing.... clearly not!

It's hard pulling myself up by the bootstraps, I know it'll be worth it. Just that ugly failure feeling keeps eating at my grey matter and all the relaxation and distraction techniques just aren't working! :)

A couple of professors let me know of stories of RN's that failed three semesters and were able to get their associates, or passed all the semesters and failed the NCLEX 5 times or so and are good nurses now.... what I do know is that I want to do this. I want to help. Nursing was never a 'dream' of mine, I did not grow up wanting to be a nurse but it is something that so far has been very fulfilling in my life and I know will continue to be so.

I think I need to rest and regroup. Maybe experience will help where lectures did not?

[midnightlpn]

Experience does help put it all together. And....ask questions! Biggest thing you can do in this field is ask, ask,ask until you gain understanding. You cant be expected to know everything instantly. Sounds like you want to be a nurse for the right reasons and if it's God's will it will be done!