midnightlpn

Experience does help put it all together. And....ask questions! Biggest thing you can do in this field is ask, ask,ask until you gain understanding. You cant be expected to know everything instantly. Sounds like you want to be a nurse for the right reasons and if it's God's will it will be done!

Thanks for the reply and suggestions. Nothing has really changed, I guess this is the first time I have worked somewhere that was so inefficient in their processes. I find myself frequently trying to reinvent ways of doing things so that productivity increases. My meds seem to be working well and I'm still going to therapy on a regular basis. I think I just need to be more confident in my skills and ideas and learn to be more assertive . Using a brain sheet helps a lot because I canchek off tasks as they are completed and hopefully not get fixated on all the distractions.

Never give up on your passion or let the journey defeat you. I've had to fail over and over again before I could get anywhere. But each time is an experience and something to learn from truly examine if nursing is your passion. If so, keep banging the door until it opens. Give yourself a chance to start anew each day. If it doesn't end up being your choice the experiences will lead you to exactly where you SHOULD be!

Hello, this is my first time posting. Figured it would be beneficial to see how others nurses with mental issues cope at work and home. I've been a LPN for 3 years now. Before becoming a nurse I was a PCT/CNA for 5 years. Recently, I was diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety disorder and PTSD. No, I am not military. I am a spouse of a veteran. I have 5 kids ages 1-14. My husband stays home with the kids. I took a night position at a rehab facility in July. I have the most acute set of patients in the facility, most are not too stable when the hospital discharges them to our unit. Since I've started I feel inadequate. I complete my work, help my team of nurses and aides, and thought I was doing a good job. But lately management has been getting on me about just about everything. I have no patient complaints, no med errors, or write ups. Average day I have 22-24 patients, post surgical, IV/PICCs on 4 patients, 2 PEGS, 6-8 accuchecks. I do treatments at night, order labs, and also responsible for 24 hour chart checks. Whatever orders or charting day shift did not complete I am responsible for. Well, if I stay past my shift to complete charts I get in trouble, then if I leave on time and leave day shift to follow up it doesn't get done and I still get it trouble. We have paper mars/tars and charts. Labs orders are handwritten. It's extremely difficult to manage the post surgical/subacute patients and complete all my charting but I get it done. Well, two weeks ago my unit manager stayed overnight with me to supposedly give me more training but instead I got monitored like a incompetent nurse the whole shift. She didn't offer any recommendations or assistance just watched me. At the end of the shift she said I performed flawlessly. So to me their issue is with their own insufficencies. I got in trouble once for picking up needed supplies from central supply because they were not stocking our unit. Some days day shift gets 6 admits and when I come in a lot of the admission paperwork isn't complete which adds to my load of tasks. I continue to show up, always smiling and positive and being the best team player I can be. Always the last to leave and get teased about it. Supervisors stand around and joke while I struggling to finish not only my work, but work other nurses failed to follow up on. I feel discouraged alienated. Am I being unreasonable or are their expectations unreasonable? I know I have ADHD and anxiety but overall it is well managed with therapy and meds. I just feel inadequate.I'm so tired when I get home I feel absent with the family. Any suggestions?