Hi,
Alright, so i've dealt w/ SA for the past 10 yrs. Had ups & downs & managed to keep it down for my 2yrs of prereqs b/c i could hide in huge lectures. Now that i just started my nursing classes it's back w/ a vegence! I get soooooo nervous I want to explode. During stupid stuff like in a small lab learning how to properly reposition pts. Honestly, nobody was even focusing on me & the whole time i'm thinking, "I cannot handle this, i need to quit!!!" And I don't want to quit but the awful feelings i get are pushing more & more into wanting to quit & I've only been in school for 3 wks!!!!!!
I know this is what i want to do more than anything. And I know that once I'm an actual RN I'll be fine. It's just the whole school-peers small classes talking aloud & performing all this stuff that kills me!
Ugh, I know i can get over this & feel so dumb b/c there are more important things to worry about in this world! I'm going to see a doc & go on meds again but that's a few wks away. i just hope i make it through til then alright.
thanks for listening to me vent.