Self sabotage in last semester? HELP

[EDNURSE20, BSN]

I am 6 weeks away from my bsn, and I think I might be subconsciously sabotaging myself. This whole last year I've been so nervous, but lately I've been feeling like I'm going to fail, unmotivated and procrastinating. Which I just thought was being burnt out and senioritis, but looking back on the long journey this has been, I never thought I would actually make it. But now I'm here weeks away from graduating and I'm a mess and still can't believe it. Starting to think I'm doing this on purpose, without realising because I can't fathom that I actually made this far.

how do I get over this? I am so desperate to finish!

[amok]

I would suggest talking to either a counselor associated with your school or an independent therapist. It's not like I think you're losing it or something, this is just one of the reasons these professionals exist. It could be burnout, or anxiety because it's all starting to seem "real?" I have no shame about the fact that I see a therapist twice a month to help me manage anxiety and depression, in fact I take opportunities like this to encourage others to do the same if they have the means. Speaking with a pro about these feelings could help you better understand and work through them, plus it can help you start a therapeutic relationship with a provider.

I'm of the opinion that anyone who works/will work around the sick and/or dying should have someone with training that they know is there for them and that they trust. Many medical professionals deal with a lot of responsibility and really dark, bleak stuff, I would take this opportunity to both address these problems before they potentially get more severe and approach it as preventative care for the future. Time heals most wounds, but can also let them fester. Best of luck. Also, I'm just going to congratulate you on your BSN now. I'm sure you can do it.