random venting, freaking out

  1. I feel as if I am about to go insane. Don't get me wrong, life is good, but I feel suddenly crazy. It likely is due to lack of sleep.

    I started my second year 2 weeks ago. We are doing OB and it is nice that we only have to go to the hospital once a week for now. I applied for a job as a student nurse and got it. Had to do all the HR paperwork, physicals, missed general orientation because of school so had to watch 6 hours of videos. In the midst of all this, my landlady freaks out and decides she is going to sell. Drama (my lease was through Feb). So I find a new place and moved this weekend and am actually getting checked out of this place on tuesday. I worked my last day yesterday at my old job and moved the majority of my stuff. Had orientation for the new job all day today, moved more stuff. Now I need to clean, but I have to go to a friend's to study and then go to clinicals all day tomorrow, straight to class and get done by 6. Then more cleaning. Starting the actual job on Friday (3-11), Saturday 3-11. Have my first test in another class on thursday. Nursing test next wednesday. Following week scheduled for 24 hours with 2 NOC shifts. Am doing a double major in psychology and am in the honors program. Have a year long research project I am working on. Some deadlines approaching soon. Insert some boy drama into the mix and that is a nice sum of my life.

    I am tired, d/t 6hrs of sleep in the past 2 nights. Still have crap at the old place. About ready to throw it all in the trash because I don't want to deal with it. And to top it all off my dad gave me a check. I put it in my pocket and can't find it anywhere now. I want to curl up into a ball and cry.

    Sorry about the vent, but I just needed to get it out.
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  2. 3 Comments

  3. by   Nurseterr7
    Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. I hope you can take a few minutes to sit and breath, maybe have nice warm shower put on your comfy jammies and get a good night sleep. I hope you feel better tomorrow. I'm not offering advice ,I just wanted you to know that I hear you.
  4. by   locolorenzo22
    Catch a catnap when you can (20 mins can do wonders), and try to focus on what is most important. You or a job? You or school? A check that can be rewritten, boy drama, or getting yourself together and thru the program that defines your profession? You can do it, but remember, you are not alone. It's just one little crazy time in life right now, and once it's done, you'll be ok! Take a breath and dive right in!
  5. by   ear
    Dont you just hate weeks like this??

    Take a deep breath, spend a few minutes doing nothing, then keep going. I just had one of those weeks last week. Big paper, clinicals, Boss going nuts at work, seminars far away from work, oh yeah, and an exam coming.

    Now, add to that for some reason, sleep was just evading me. Was up at 3 AM several times, (no matter how late i went to sleep)

    Glad that you have the insight to know that the sleep deprivation will make everything seem like too much!

    It will all work out. Take your time, and keep breathing.

    This too shall pass!

    Best to you
    ~ear

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