This is a long post...
I have been a liberal arts student for the last 2.5 years. I made the decision that I would like to be a nurse and took many of the requirements for that path. However, as a teen, I had a terrible experience with math. I couldn't see the overhead projector (which the teacher used all the time) and struggled in my algebra class. I ended up being homeschooled so I took consumer math versus geometry. My mother couldn't have taught me geometry or anything like that. But I digress, so I had a lot of anxiety about algebra. The first time I took the accuplacer, I scored exceptionally high on everything but the algebra. I didn't know it was on the test and guessed my way through it. Due to feeling anxious about the algebra, I let it become a stumbling block in path. I couldn't get on the school's nursing wait list without it.
I finally built up the confidence to do everything I could to get it right. I used the school's online accuplacer prep help and worked through the algebra. I did this in about a month while I was still taking my full time course load which included 400 level psychology work. I scheduled the re-take and passed algebra with flying colors; getting into a math class higher than the one I wanted. I was ecstatic! I could finally get on the list! Well, lo and behold, they had eliminated the wait list at my school. Good? No, not exactly since they were depleting their current list and not adding any new names. This would take 3-5 years. I wasn't cool with that and already had attended an information session on the nursing program through another school, just to have my ducks in a row since I thought I might have a 2 year wait at my current school.
Over winter break (Christmas time), I got the HESI study guide and spent every moment studying it like mad. I took the entrance exam for the community college and crossed my fingers. I scored overall 91%. Great but there were some problems during the testing process that lowered one of my scores. But I wasn't taking it again. I work and am a mom, and school had just started back up. I didn't think I would get into the school. They accept 8 applicants out of ...? There were at least 30 people testing the day I went and I knew of others. But I did get in. I was shocked but elated.
Yesterday was the orientation. Now I'm nervous as ever! Everyone says it is going to be the rollercoaster ride of your life. I don't know how I feel about that. They say, "we teach you to think like a nurse, not memorize." Well, what do you know? I'm not great at memorization and have always been about application. I can memorize but I don't like to. But a rollercoaster ride? Not being able to work...? But what's that? You're only giving me 10 credits so I won't be full time? Reduced financial aid? But you don't think I can work...? See, now I've got red flags going off in my mind. A few of the students that talked have jobs, most are parents, one had six children...
I think I will be okay financially if I don't work but I also wonder, is it worth it? Is it as bad as they say and why is it as bad? They kept talking about critical thinking. I took a class in generalized critical thinking and liked it. I got an A. I took debate and that was all about critical thinking. How is nursing critical thinking different than plain ol' critical thinking? How is nursing school
different than anything else you have to work hard at? I remember when I was pregnant, I was 17 years old and scared as heck about "the ring of fire" that they talked about in the birthing book the hospital gave me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was anxious about giving birth but when the time came to give birth, I actually had an easy birth. It wasn't that bad at all. I was lucky. My point is, is all this hoopala kind of like how they tell you how bad it is to give birth (because a lot of people DO have problems) but it MAY not be as bad for you or if it is bad, maybe it is worth it? If you're in nursing school now, what do you think? Did they make you feel like your life was going to be horrible during nursing school?
Is it horrible? Do you wish you chose something different? Did you work? Or if you didn't, how did you pay for school and support yourself?