i am a 23 year old mother of two children, a 4 month old and a two year old. my two year old son was born premature at 32 weeks gestation which resulted in him having to stay in the nicu for a little over a month - that was when i decided i wanted to be an rn. however i already am well aware that the only areas of nursing i want to work in are l & d or a nicu, or infant nursery. i am very passionate about wanting to work inside a nicu, ever since my son was hospitalized i knew that's what i wanted to do, i felt it was my "calling". ive never felt this way about anything else. i would watch the show NICU on tlc and it just moved me, like i would seriously cry because i just wanted to help!!
i am currently a student at TWU finishing up pre-reqs for the nursing program, i am already so discouraged and dissapointed because of things i have heard from my professors. i am starting to think that i am not smart enough to accomplish nursing school, despite the fact that i know its something i want to do...so ive started considering going into dental hygiene instead...however that is not really something im passionate about...like i am about working inside a nicu. i have previously gone to school for dental assisting and i am certified in that area, but chose to go back to school because i didnt enjoy it, so now i feel like i am stuck in a rut! also, my professor was telling our class about a story about an 18 month old infant who was seriously burned because of an incident, and it just made me so upset - once again i was about to cry - am i too emotional to be able to work inside the nicu field, or am i emotional because i am passionate about doing it?
i have heard many girls tell me you will never achieve nursing school if it is not your passion or if you are only going to nursing school for one reason, is my reasoning FOR wanting to be a nurse a good enough reason to be in nursing school? or should i choose another path.
also right now i am at TWU - which is a four year university, and i am considering transferring to a community college next semester to get my associates FIRST..then take the RN to BSN path, since it is all online and i have two small children, i figure with an associates i can finish sooner, and start working while working on my bachelors!!!
i am just so confused, and discouraged & any advice would be greatly appreciated, good or bad - i feel like i need help making this decision, and what better way than to hear from other nurses & nursing students.