I admit I'm kinda awkward. And every performance testing, my instructor fails me and makes me go to do second attempts and for the reason simply just no confidence. Im doing good so far in all my other classes, the theories even the clinicals but my prof always refer me to second attempts. Even tho I'm precise, I do procedures correct I'm still not worthy to pass at first try, and there's always that subjective reason. Even my classmates tell me that I've got some insecurity issues going on.
I admit i am insecure sometimes. But I can be a leader, and I can turn on an authoritative mode and I'm independent and self sufficient. And I like having social interactions with others. In clinicals pt.s and staff like me and compliment me for my attitude but it's the other way around in school. I don't know what it is, it could be that I'm the youngest person in my batch right now, or simply I'm exuding an aura that shows I'm a vulnerable kid. One time even, someone told me that "this field is not for you."
Anyways, semester is almost ending, gotta take the last second attempt performance test, I'm just happy I'm one sem less closer to graduation.