I remember in my clinicals,many years ago,that I also became disillusioned and questioned myself but, one-day in class (A&PII),I received a message to report to the Nursing Directors office. I was sure my number was up and as I entered her office, with eyes swollen and tears running down my face,she merely pointed over to a package that had been delivered for me.
I opened the box and inside was a small basket filled with Easter Grass,a rope about 15" wrapped around the handle and upon further digging,a quart size zip-lock bag.
I pulled the bag out of the basket and upon examination of its contents were the most unusual items; an eraser,penny,marble,rubber band,string, a candy that said hug and a chocolate kiss. I was bewildered until I noticed a note wrapped with a bow; upon opening,it read;
Feeling Great Kit
An Eraser, so you can make all your mistakes go away.
A Penny, so you will never have to say; "I'm broke".
A Marble, in case someone says you've lost all yours.
A rubber Band, to stretch yourself to the limits.
A String, to tie things together when it seems that everything falls apart.
A Hug and a Kiss, to remind you that someone cares about you.
Another small note wrapped with a bow, worded simply; "Open if All else Fails".
Upon opening it, I Bawled!!! Then I laughed; it said; "Betts, unwrap the rope and when you get to the end of it, tie a Knot and Hang On!"
Signed: No matter the outcome, I'm always here, by your side.
Love, Your Husband ...
I graduated with a GPA of 3.6
So, get a quart size baggie, fill it with the above items and remember to include a small length of rope. You will make it!
I still have the baggie with all its contents and the rope, hangs above my degree.