I have been off work for a few months for severe anxiety and depression, I thought I had worked through the problem but I went to report for new job today and had panic attack. I have been an RN for 14 years, I worked homecare and OR. In the last few years I have lost my mom to alzheimers disease, I was primary caregiver, I have been married and divorced and had 3 major surgeries, physically I am ok but I just got burned out and now I am lacking the confidence to deal with anything. I am a good nurse, I have good skills I just do not know how to get past all this anxiety, I have been to therapy and I know and understand everything they teach but I cannot seem to get past this. I thought I have dealt with the death of my mom and divorce etc. but I keep coming back to this and cannot seem to move forward, everything seems to remind me of this. I have had severe depression to the point of not wanting to be awake, not wanting to kill myself, just not knowing how to go forward and deal with everything. I am almost broke and I still am not able to get past the panic attacks. Part of me thinks I need to move to another area or to maybe travel nurse I just am so confused as to what to do. Any suggestions appreciated. Thanks for letting me rant.
