I have been off work for a few months for severe anxiety and depression, I thought I had worked through the problem but I went to report for new job today and had panic attack. I have been an RN for 14 years, I worked homecare and OR. In the last few years I have lost my mom to alzheimers disease, I was primary caregiver, I have been married and divorced and had 3 major surgeries, physically I am ok but I just got burned out and now I am lacking the confidence to deal with anything. I am a good nurse, I have good skills I just do not know how to get past all this anxiety, I have been to therapy and I know and understand everything they teach but I cannot seem to get past this. I thought I have dealt with the death of my mom and divorce etc. but I keep coming back to this and cannot seem to move forward, everything seems to remind me of this. I have had severe depression to the point of not wanting to be awake, not wanting to kill myself, just not knowing how to go forward and deal with everything. I am almost broke and I still am not able to get past the panic attacks. Part of me thinks I need to move to another area or to maybe travel nurse I just am so confused as to what to do. Any suggestions appreciated. Thanks for letting me rant.
It sounds like you're under a lot of stress in work, without all the past major life changes you've just had. I too suggest you to keep seeing your health practitioner.
Just try to remember things 'will' get better one day. That this horrible period is just a painful flash in your life and you'll feel happy and relaxed again, although that might feel to be so far away right now. It's the idea that you're stuck in that 'zone' that makes it worse, I think anyway.
Right now I think you need to try to take out some big stressors in your life, if you really don't enjoy your job, hunt for a new one in your time off . Put off things like study/moving etc for a while and concentrate more on relaxation and hobbies. Give yourself a break, piling up more and more things onto yourself to do, will increase your stress levels and that will coincide with these panic attacks.
Wishing you all the best in the future and hope you feel better soon!
Last edit by Gold_SJ on Apr 5, '12
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