reevaluating my life and career=(

[erin01]

Hi,

I worked on a step down tele floor night for over a year. I just went out on maternity leave to have my second child. My plan was to go back per diem nights! Well i went back the other night and now am re thinking everything. I felt like crap going in i was already tired. While i was off i really felt the toll nights had taken on me, and when i went back felt it all over again. My lo didnt do well either, got a call from hubby with a screaming baby. I had a horrible night, that made me think about quitting. i just started to questioning everything. I hate that floor its really hard and always understaffed and not sure i even like bedside nursing. A lot of my friends have left that floor and went to ccu and the ER. I am not sure what to think right now other than i do not want to go back!!!!!! I feel like my family needs me and its not worth torturing myself to stick with nights. I was thinking about calling my manger and saying i am not able to return at this point but would be able to pick up a dayshift on the weekends if they need me. I feel like maybe i should take some time off, and explore another types of nursing. i feel like am at a cross road. Oh man i am lost and confused.

[Up2nogood RN, RN]

If you're only perdiem, how many shifts do you need to work?

I work at one where I just need to make myself available 2 shifts per month. Have you spoken with your NM? If it were me I wouldn't quit but keep my foot in the door until

A. I found another job or

B. I was ready to go back to work

I've had to go back to work after my kids were born after 1 month d/t financial reasons and at the time I went back to evening shift (when it was available), daddy was home at that time and it made it an easier transition. I really suggest talking to your NM before you quit, chances he/she may be understanding.