I need help. I don't know what else to do. i left my bedside job as an ICU RN and took a job as a nurse manager at a new facility. At first I thought it was my big ticket out of bedside and a great chance to expand my career. I can't do bedside anymore, it has physically killed me and I am only 30, I don't want to be crippled by 40. I already require alot of chiropractic and massage work and physical therapy I don't go to....
Anyways, my big break has ended up a nightmare. I make great money, but the job is awful. This place is not run well, is a start-up for profit and the person who is my boss, the VP of nursing is awful. She is nothing but a charge nurse from another facility, she just happened to know the right people. She doesn't like me for a few reasons, one, because I am not in her Philipino clique (she brought over all of her friends from her other job) and because I am praised by my coworkers and upper management. She has no idea what she has doing, hasn't guided me, has caused many problems that i am having a hard time solving. I am basically winging it. I have no support from her, no guidance. She just expects me to be a charge nurse every day we are short of staff which is everyday because of her poor work. I almost quit a few times, but I my other coworkers won't let me. They beg me ot hang in there, praise me to the CEO who thinks I am doing a great job, and when at a directors meeting other department heads were saying nice things about me, my boss makes a speech to everyone which was the speech she gave me in her office once when she didn't like that I wasn't taking charge nurse everytime we were short (not in my job despcription) she basically had to shoot me down because everyone was prasing me, not her.
Anyways, while i have everyone elses support, I don't have the one person I really need it from. And she is protected because of the medical director. It's a bad situation all around. I am working million hour days, called all weekend, attacked my staff all the time about our poor staffing (something i am trying to fix, but can't do overnight) given a million and one responsibilites with no guidance at all. I am tired, my life is suffering. I am a single mom to my daughter and can never leave work at work, I fear I will nto be able to pick ehr up on time and i am exhausted.
I need to find another job, but I don't know where to look. I know i will have to take a huge pay cut. But I don't want bedside anymore. I am a nurse of 5 years, most of it critical care.ICU. I have my associates, not a BSN. Where can I look? What can I do with my nursing license?
