I've suffered from some pretty severe depression most of my life. I always wanted to go into nursing, did wonderfully in school (BSN), and for a long while, my job was my salvation, actually helped keep me from being too deeply depressed even in some rough times. But since the it's gone downhill. I love it, I really do......but I've been hospitalized (psych 3 times) since I started nursing, lost one job due to calling in sick too frequently......found I have difficulty with shift rotation (the shift changes mess with my mental internal clock).....tried straight nights which was great for a while, until the effect of being up all night and sleeping days began to really screw me up (leading to my first OD attempt and hospitalization). I eventually left hospital nursing, to avoid rotating....as no one gets straight days in a hospital, even those with seniority! I got a homecare job......days, M-F, occasiona weekend and weekday eve on-call, but not enough to matter. It's been a while, and getting rougher and rougher, despite working in my specialty area, which I love! The hours have gotten so long.......see patients all day till 4:30 or 5, come home and eat (since I didn't have lunch or breakfast, except maybe a granola bar), the do my paperwork, which with occasional interuption re homework help, can take up to 9-10pm, esp as we recntly changed our software, and it had made this waaaaay slower. I feel like all I do is work and sleep. No surprise I am falling into another bad depression. Seeing a psych doc, on meds (have recently been adjusted), also being worked up for GI probs, likely stress related as well. My qualm is thus: what else is there I can do, in nursing or a related field where I don't have to rotate shirts, or work long hours like I do now? I knew what I was getting into when I got my degree, I just thought I would be stronger, that I could take it. I'm not sure I can. I love the field, and don't want to leave it. I applied at an office, which seemed pretty low key, not very busy.....but it's been 2 weeks and no word. Other offices might be an option, but I know some are also very busy and intense. Are there other career optiona anyone knows of, or has tired, or is doing? I don't want to leave the health care arena, I really don't. Please, does anyone have advice for someone who needs just a tad less stress right now?