I am a newer nurse and have been employed since August last year. I was hired on as a RN on a 64 bed unit med-surge unit. Med surge is not the field I wanted to go into, but because of the economy I took the job and I am really learning alot. However I need some advice/encouragement. I feel when I am at work I am stretched so thin. I recently moved from 8hour PM's to 12 hour days because I thought I would have more time for my patients and get away from the task oriented nursing. I feel like when I am at work I am merely getting tasks done, I become agitated when family members ask me to talk so many times during the day, and it is not that I do not want to talk and comfort them or answer their questions but when they are calling multiple times per day when I just spoke with them, I do not have the time to go back 20 minutes later. I became a nurse because I truly want to make a difference in the lives of the individuals that I serve. I have complained about not being able to find enough time for patients and it frustrates me, but I feel like co-workers just brush it off they say that is how it is and to not let it get to me. I want my co-workers to like me but it is hard to not complain about things on certain days. Some days I will have a 2 discharges 2 admissions and a transfer all in 1 shift, on top of all my other duties as a nurse. We have a charge nurse but they are not always available to help and I feel when we ask for help they are not as open as I would like them to or they do not have the time. Often I feel overwhelmed and drained and to top it off I have co-workers who tell on other co-workers if they are not able to get all their work done or they forget to do something. I am not talking about something that could hurt a patient but things that I didn't even do like a missed page on a printed mar, that is copied by night shift or not having an antibiotic hung before shift is over because it was not available. I am still new and I feel some of the other nurses eat their young and there are some cliques that are evident. I am not complaining about having a job I am greatful. I just want to know how other nurses deal with the constant stress of nursing, go home and still are able to sleep without worrying about whether you made a mistake. I go home worrying about making a mistake because I am so busy I do not always get the time to be as thorough as I would like and I cannot always double check. I feel sometimes it is unsafe with 6 patients. When we have 5 it is ok, but we are getting the same number of patients on days and pm's as they are getting at night. During the day we have doctors, families, tests, orders, and heavy med passes. I am not saying they are not busy at nights, because I know they are but. How can I stay happy at my job, have energy to go above and beyond and still be safe and get out of work on time. I want to give the best to my patients but lately I have been dreading to go to work. Positive encouragement only please!
Kristen:nurse: