Im just so depressed over this. I graduated in Aug of 2010 with my BSN as Magna Cum Laude. I started working PRN at a PACU outpatient center. I had my DON approach me and tell me that if I need a reference she would be more than happy to speak to people on my behalf. She actually went on to tell me that Im doing much better than the "experienced" PRN nurse they hired at the same time and I. Even the FT PACU nurses will approach me and ask me for information regarding newer procedures and medications. Which I love the fact they can come to me.
However, my issue (I think) is my personality ...or lack of.
I have Asperger Syndrome. In reality my main real problems is that I often have a flat expression, have a hard time 'bonding', and have a VERY hard time with sarcasm.
I am much better with patients. I have to focus real hard on them and try to read them as well as I can. I honestly do try to be as caring as I can. Each patient at our center takes a feedback survey which we receive back. Ive never had a negative or even neutral feedback. They've always been positive. I love that job. I *may* not look like it but I really do. FYI, I had been the first new graduate for the facility and there was no real orientation. Pretty much given patients and another nurse (who also has patients) who I can ask questions.
My problem - Im pretty sure my affect and lack of personality has been the reason I havent been offered a job after my interviews. I try to force "personality" into my face, clothing, behavior, resume, ect. Im sure the falseness of my behavior can be readily detectable.
I dont know what to do. I need a FT job. There isnt a doubt I will be an excellent nurse. With the syndrome so personal I just dont know how to go about letting the interviewer know ...if I even should.
