Hello...I am a first semester RN student of an ADN program..I really need some help here...I am so confused about my feelings right now...We started clinicals today and we are in a nursing home...we had orientation last week and today we were assigned our patient....the nursing home smells so awful and I am so sad when I see these people...the care they receive there is not up to standard and today I was assigned a patient who is 105 years old and was told to auscultate lung sounds....my instructor listened with me and she could hear them but I couldn't..I was so frustrated I only listened to lung sounds twice in lab and that was on my classmates and she says I can tell some of you practiced and some didn't...I didn't have a problem on my classmates but major problems hearing on my patient ....When we went to bathe her we took her pants off and found a washcloth inside of her diaper (I guess for absorbancy???) for some reason that caught me off guard and really threw me ....anyway I came home crying today as I did the last time I went there ...Am I having normal feelings or am I jsut not cut out for this..I don't feel called to work with the elderly at all it is so depressing to me...I know that maybe this should be on the student nursing board but I am hoping for lots of response..I am so hoping that this is part of the process and I am not some lightweight wimp.. thanks for reading this