First night on my own

[Sdaniel2360]

Hi everybody....I have a little bit of venting to do so maybe I can breathe before my first night on my own...tonight. I felt pretty comfortable the last few weeks in orientation....minus some of the intimidating things like calling the doc at 2a.m. I know I have made great improvements in the last 8 weeks but it wasn't as intimidating knowing I had my preceptor right there if I needed anything....well that luxury is now gone and it's time to do this on my own, and while I do have some great coworkers and I am not afraid to ask questions....I'm still pretty nervous about it all....my time management has been pretty good up to this point but now I feel like how am I gonna keep up with all the lines and gtts and pumps and drains, assessments, meds...and all of the charting too.....I expect it takes a while to get your own routine...but in the meantime I'm afraid I will forget or overlook something...any adv on how to put my mind at ease and just work through this?? I am sure a little ways down the road I will look back and giggle a little for all these crazy nerves...but right now the only thing I can seem to muster up is a nauseous tummy, headache, and anxiety....oh and of course the fear......gotta love that fear of everything...what if I don't get this done or that done...what if I make a mistake...what if "it" hits the fan...how am I going to handle it all????