Charge with full patient load

[RNinSC88]

Questions for those of you that take charge and a full load of patients: How do you stay positive and help others when you have your own group to deal with, and overall how do you deal with the stress of it?

I have a great opportunity at my job in that I only have to work weekends, so that means no daycare for the baby, and I am considered full time but only work 24 hours a week, plus make an extra $2/hr to be charge. The downside to this is that I am always required to take my own group of 6 patients, and often feel like I am doing the job of 2 people...and after doing it for over 6 months, I am getting burnt out, and I don't feel it's safe overall for patients.

I think I am a good nurse and a good charge nurse, but doing both at the same time makes me feel inadequate. I have high standards for myself, and it bothers me when I cannot focus on my patients as much as they deserve, and it frustrates me when I barely have time to look at staffing and then get phone calls several times a day, while I am in my patients rooms, to handle it.

I don't want to change jobs because I do like my job overall, and I LOVE that the baby is home with me all week. I try to hide my negativity and stress while at work, but it's becoming harder the longer I am in the position, and harder the more demands my manager makes of me while there and when I am supposed to be off. I know I am in a 'leadership' role, and I understand the importance of meetings and classes, but I work weekends because I don't have childcare for the baby and it can be difficult to get someone to watch her (my MIL can watch her, but it takes me an hour and a half just to get the baby to her and to get to work, then another hour and a half to get her and back home...for an hour long meeting).

I know I just need to suck it up and deal with it because it is what works best for my family at the moment...but I'm open to suggestions on how make it more tolerable.