I am starting to think that six patients is too much for me and I will never be able to be a good nurse. I just had a really bad week. I had three doctors yell at me. One yelled at me because a patient left the hospital and he thinks I should have known the guy was going to leave (I was in a code when the guy left the floor). I got yelled at for not knowing a patient was scheduled for dialysis when there was no order for him to go. I got yelled at because my computer crashed just as a dr phoned me back and I couldnt give him the info he needed. I even had a patient's family member yell at me because I was doing another nurse a favor. I walked in and gave the patient a shot of insulin. Apparantly "the doctor said she dont need no insulins ever again, she is cured and 197 is a great sugar that dont need no treatments". He walked down the hallway yelling at me while I told him to take it up with the charge nurse, it was already done, I couldnt take it back now.
I left work considering quitting. My charge nurse says I am effective and good and she is always saying she is impressed with my work. My Manager walked onto the floor and said she is glad she hired me. But I dont FEEL like they know what they are saying. I feel ineffective, unprepared and honestly like I am ready to yell back at someone.
Is that normal?