Fear and stress are no such bless but are the rush I seem to feel
I finally see, that indeed, the new grad blues are very real.
Looking dumb and feeling slow are the only things I seem to know.
When will I pass this such phase and exit the daunting new grad maze?
When will I hone my nursing skills and not like I'm drowning plum up to my gills?
When will I become competent and start to feel halfway confident?
Where is the day of fruition when I find my nursing intuition?
When will I prove myself to you and finally become one of the crew?
Is it normal to have such struggle? Should I be having this much trouble?
Drudging through this humbling time consumes with worry my anxious mind.
Will I catch on and know what to do or will I freeze up and not have a clue?
With each patient I can't help but worry; will I be explaining my care to a judge and a jury?
Regardless of matter or how hard I try I'm eventually deduced to a self-pity cry.
I'm told my fears are normal, benign and that things will improve- just give it some time.
So until the splendor of that wonderful day- it is for guidance and strength I will continue to pray
For all the new nurses feeling stressed and alone- allow some time to come into your own.
For what is worth and what I hear, it is pure hell the very first year