am a new nurse I was hired as a delivery nurse as a first job, but then I got switched to surgery because I needed more general experience in nursing. I am at my 4th day of orientation in surgery , I feel so overwhelmed and somewhat discouraged. I try so hard to be a good nurse, but I get so anxious , there are just so many things to do I don't know where to start. I feel like I am just trying to keep my head out of the water. I try to make a plan to organize myself, but things doesn't always go accordingly. There are days when I feel like a failure, I sometimes even question myself why I became a nurse. I mean I passed my board exam in one shot, knock on wood I passed all my exams at school and currently continuing my bachelor's degree, I only have a yr left until I become a Bachelor degree nurse ( where I'm from you can become an RN after doing a 3 yr college Nursing course and pass the RN exam) . But somehow now that I'm working, I can't seem to manage well. I'm always scared of forgetting something and making a mistake. Going through the charts is a task, I can't read the doctor's hand writing! I always feel like I don't know my patients enough , I constantly finding myself double/triple checking if im doing the procedure/giving meds/evaluating the right patient. I don't understand how I'm suppose to know everything thats going on on my patients. I feel like my brain is going to explode. And I often find myself really anxious before and after work .I am posting this because I want to know if I am the only one feeling this way. I feel like there is this impending doom . I am really scared I wont pass my orientation and they'll just kick me out cause they think I'm hopeless. I mean I didn't go through nursing school to find myself jobless ? I really like nursing I just feel like I can't seem to find my "place" in it , and I'm really scared I chose the wrong career.
I really like nursing I just feel like I can't seem to find my "place" in it , and I'm really scared I chose the wrong career.