I have been a CNA for 2.5 years in a hospital and before, i was so hyped up about nursing, i even make plans on what i'm gonna specialize on...I got rejected by some nursing schools and it's making me think if it's for me but im still applying (too many applicants, even my total score of 88 won't get me through). Now since i'm not in school i began to observe my workplace, not just my department, but other departments as well. I experience how patients can be verbally abusive, sometimes physical also. How they ask questions and try to do it their way or else they will be non-compliant with the treatments and they want answers "NOW", how they can't understand why they can't have a simple medication as Tylenol for a specific reason and accuse the nurse of not knowing what he/she is doing (calls them dumb), how some patients even a co-RN of theirs can become so stubborn and thinks they know what they're doing and ends up on the floor instead, how nursing can put a huge amount of stress to nurses sometimes they end up crying inside the locker room or regret they become a nurse. Some patients are great and they make you feel special. I like people, good or bad, but now being more exposed to it makes me re-think if this is something i want to do until i retire.
Some nurses told me to go try and be a Physical Therapist, some nurses doesn't give suggestions but simply say "if i could go back i'll pick something else", some healthcare staff say it's better to work in the lab, but some nurses say that nursing is still "ok" since i'm already a CNA and that's the only route i could go to move up.
Any insights? i'm loosing my motivation....=(