Withdrawal with good standing what now?

[RN_makingit, BSN, RN]

Hello, I am an ex-SRNA who has had a rocky road in my journey and would appreciate some advice, encouragement, or others' shared experiences to help me grow and find direction for where to go from here. I had no problems with grades; the material is fantastic, and I love learning and doing the job of anesthesia. My first semester of clinicals was difficult emotionally, and I had to take a break, which the school graciously provided. I struggled with severe depression/anxiety and had to do therapy to help undo some negative thought processes and traits that crippled me emotionally. With that being said, I am still relatively introverted in the OR and have had trouble breaking out of that shell. Fast forward approximately a year, same position, but emotionally stable and back at the same clinical site where I had been previously. I feel that I struggled in the same way many first-semester SRNAs do, establishing a routine and learning staff nuances, etc. I kept receiving bad evaluations periodically, and I would say my evaluations were 60% good/40% bad. I was told I would probably fail a semester due to lagging behind my peers, and then later that week, another negative review. I was told they were recommending dismissal, but they allowed me to withdraw in good standing. Has anyone had a similar experience and been able to reapply to another program and finish successfully? Does anyone have thoughts on the subjective nature of grading in clinicals? Does anyone have tips or success in increasing emotional intelligence? Just grasping at straws and trying to put my life back together a little. Thanks in advance.