Thursday August 15th 2024

No Stars In My Eyes · Aug 15, 2024

Mid-80's. not rain, reasonable humidity reading.

I called Nannie's Dr's office and her doc doesn't have any appt's until mid-October, so I got an appt with another doc therefor next Wednesday (21st) at 2:40 PM. That is supposed to be SiL's afternoon with her, but I said I would take her to the appt, in case SiL has a reason she can't take Nannie for that day. I don't want to count on her or anyone else to take Nannie, simply because the 'schedule' for any relief has been so screwed up lately (for me, anyway).

Okay, time to get Nannie up out of bed and to the recliner. I don't know the state of her bedding yet. And Chatty CG is supposed to come today....at least I haven't yet rec'd any calls that she can't make it today...

UGH, UGH, UGH. I guess I need to take my car over to the dealership to see about getting that stupid "tire has low-air" light on the dashboard, and I can make an appt w/ them for the other two things they mentioned needed taken care of. If I have to go back on a day when there is no one else scheduled with Nannie, I will just drag her along and she can wait in the customer waiting room with me. That stuff has needed to be taken care of for at least several weeks now, and I am tired of trying to schedule around CG's who may or may not be able to take her whatever day it might be.

And so it goes.

No Stars In My Eyes · Aug 16, 2024

Spoiler Report: ------- Another one of my l-o-n-g posts:

The guy at the dealership said they took all four tires off and searched and searched, and even pumped the tires up to 50 psi, and NUTHIN', no air bubbles at all! -- He said if there was a hole in the tire it would have to be a really, really miniscule one that only let air out under certain infrequent road conditions. I've been driving it with the dashboard low-tire light on for what...a week? a week and 1/2? Two weeks? I dunno. I lose track so easily these days. Anyway, The tires are okay, and that's good news! It is likely to be the sensor getting hyper, and from what I understand, they are expensive to replace. Stupid! I'll just have them unhook it, remove the bulb, or stick a piece of thick tape over it. I have an appt to take it next Thursday to have the tires balanced and the brakes checked. (I can go to the HFS then, too, because it is all the way out there about a mile or so past the dealership) Hey! Ha-ha! The dealerships' computer had me estimated as having driven 75,000 miles by now, but boy was it way off! So, right now I don't need to worry about having any more tune-ups or an oil change yet. My REAL mileage is only 43,530. And my warranty is ---heh-heh-heh ---for 100,000 miles 😂.

I also found out today that FedEx is a cheaper place to have stuff shredded.....I had (yes sir, yes sir) two bags full, and it only cost me $17! I really should start shredding it myself, as I DO have a cross-cut shredder, but it seems any time to do so gets pushed aside. It just got to be so much, I decided I would pay for it to get gone!

I am now like one of those little old ladies who just go to the grocery store, the pharmacy, the doctor, the hairdresser, you know.....quite a bit different than I lived in Asheville, where I used to get lost regularly on-purpose, so I could put portions of the town together in a way I could picture in my head. I'd LIKE to drive around here to see where more things are, but ....I hate to say this....I tried it here once, but got REALLY lost, like 2 cities and/or counties away, and so waaaaay far out in the countryside, where cross-roads were few and far between! I mean it all looks the same, and there is no rhyme or reason to the road systems, which they feel impelled to repair or change multiple times a year (it seems like orange construction cones are the state flower!) Besides when do I have time?

Life is different here, and not especially in a way I can connect with. And being retired, not knowing folks I worked with for years makes it really different, and of course, being super-glued to Nannie-responsibilities. So, nah, I'm not much of a joiner, so I don't know what kind of group I'd seek out. Usually when I have done something like that, I may last for 2 or 3 meetings and I don't go back. Sure don't fit in with the grammy-or-mommy-and-kids crowd, nor am I particularly enthusiastic about going to or joining a church/congregation/fellowship.

I'd like to think, wrongly or rightly, that something will happen organically, if you know what I mean. To tell you the truth I mostly don't care for large groups and crowds. And yet, in Boston and Cambridge there were LOTS and LOTS of people, but I felt safely anonymous and crowds didn't bother me, as I could ignore them. In that personality test that was going around a number of years ago (four letters denoted each 'type, with its variants.) I think I was equally introverted as I was extroverted, or one point more for being introverted? I THINK it came out "INSP",uh.... maybe. Whooooooknows! And like it even matters!

When I was coming home I stopped at SUBWAY to get our supper, as Nannie loves their subs and cookies, and I sure (shor'nuff) did NOT feel like preparing anything. She got the supper tray on her lap and as usual ate the fruit and dessert first. Then she held up the 1/2 sub and said to me...."Is this here for me to eat?" Oh, I bit back several really sarcastic answers and just said "Uh-Huh." (Oh what a good girl am I 😠😇 !)

The Chatty CG said something to Nannie, as she was getting ready to leave about SiL coming over tomorrow to take her out for fish? I haven't heard anything, but *I* do not want to be invited, as I dislike the idea they have here about what fried fish is supposed to look and taste like. I mean: BLICK-PATOOEY! Reckon if that'll be happening (the fishy field-trip) I will find out tomorrow around noon, which is when SiL usually calls me. And I will nicely decline to join them.

So I have finally dried off from the sweat and exhaustion I worked myself into when I realized, as I put Nannie to bed, that it is trash pick-up day tomorrow, so I had to go up and down stairs and then out to the barrels and then bring them out to the street, AND I also decided it would be a good idea to get the dishes done so there will be glasses and spoons for Nannie's breakfast.

I AM JUST NOT MADE FOR THE LIFE OF BEING A HOUSE-KEEPER every day. It just never ends! Annnnd I need to BE my OWN "patient" to do Private Duty for; I'd LIKE to be able to do that for myself while I am still up and about and REASONABLY sane. I soooooo crave my OWN LIFE! The fact that I don't know where it would be, I can't worry about right now, as there is NO $$$$ to back up anything I might decide. And I AM the beneficiary of Nannie's will, except for 1% or 1 and 1/2 % of the value of the house and property, which goes to BiL and SiL. The house needs so many renovations, and without them, the value of it is Ppfftt, not as much as it could be. No sense in getting into that, In a few weeks I will make an appt with my lawyer and change my will so step-dgt isn't executor or beneficiary.

I'd like an RV and a well-trained German Shepard dog so I can travel around and have the option to visit with some folks without being compelled to stay with them in their house or in a motel.

As Annie Hall used to say: "Lah-de-dah, lah-de-dah." (I never have seen that whole movie).

And on that note I will bid you adieau....because I do not know what the French word is for g'mornin"....................(1:02 AM)

No Stars In My Eyes · Aug 16, 2024

Regarding this particular post----------This space originally contained the first version of my 2nd post, not submitted; it just reappeared and I don't know (or care) why.......so I just erased it all.

Carry on, nothing to see here: 🙃